“Inner Man”!

2/8/10

6/8/08

Once again,the Lord awakens me!  It is 3:40am ,His time

of quietness.While the world slumbers,it is His time for the

Inner man.It is truely a heart to heart communication.

Whenever ,I wanted another Christian to reach into my

heart,I would suggest that they read the words of His

weblog,for I know that many who read the words on

those weblogs laugh.For a prophet is without honour in

His own country.

Yet,I know and understand the pulling from my heart His

words.This was our agreement years ago,when finishing

my college time knowing of the blending of mans secular

ways,and Gods ways of counseling in love;In spirit .

This blending of  mans limited love ,and Gods Holy Spirit;

was a preparation for spiritual healing of His children.

I talk and know His perfection of Agape,as we share those

spiritual woundings we both share one last time

together;  as His chosen.

I know you remain ignorant (not knowing)

of many spiritual matters.

How when we counsel within His love,you then

understand  just how much It does hurt me to suffer

as you have,in order to share that healing from your God.

Those twinges within me,only soften my inner man;

as we talk one on one with our Holy Spirit: as He

knows our Divinities groan ,so deep!

How it must be perceived  in Heaven as it is here on earth,

for our Grace is immediatly born within ourselves.

The melding of Agape and Obedience,responds with Grace

in our inner man; for the love we feel for the Trinity.

This quiet time as His Spirit speaks, is a loving purge of the

spirit within;nothing can compare.

God cleanses us in His healing constantly.Not only our

inner man,but our complete soul now.For those who know

this slow cleansing healing, requires strengthening from Him

on a daily basis.We cannot function without it,His Spirits

anointing is our strength and spiritual power from our God.

In His most tenderest of ways,does He feather the words

needed to create the light of Jesus within us.That portion

of His Grace illuminates His Shekinah.I know without a

doubt,that all those scars of our battles in which we are

more than conquerors; will: in Eternity glow and shine

from the inner man.It will begin to shine from within,

and proceed  outwardly through those spiritual wounds;

we have gotten  over the years in  proof: of our love for Him.

Relative, are these Shekinah wounds we will be seen as

that which distinguishes who we are in Heaven with the

many crowns we will receive there.They will be spiritual

badges of our inner man ,as we are recognized as one of

“Jesus redeemed”. Not all heavenly beings will know this

special distinction there.Many are the redeemed,yet

only a small percentage will be able to claim this

in our new home to be. Gods gift to His Sons,

as the first-born.

“Wherefore remember,that ye being in time

past Gentiles in the flesh,who are called Uncir-

cumcision by that which is called the Circumcision

in the flesh made by hands;

That at that time ye were without Christ,

being aliens from the commonwealth of Israel,

and strangers from the covenants of promise,having

no hope,and without God in the world.

But now in Christ Jesus ye who sometimes

were far off are made nigh by the blood of Christ.”

Ephesians 2:11,12,13

“for he is our peace, who hath made both

one,and hath broken down the middle wall of

partition between us;”

Ephesians 2:14

In your Mercy & Grace Lord,

lampwickke xxx

“Promo,-Dear Heart”!

"Life Is Love"!

2/8/10

11/3/09

Dear Heart,

I have my suspicions that this is a devious reason that some guy felt led to write

just to see if he could receive any responses from a female? Sadly,some men would go to such lengths to be so deceptive? However; although I am an older gentleman following a Spiritual Path these last 35yrs,I can also empathize with the possibility of some truth within . I am not eco-conscious as there are no doubt many who are,and can gladly take my place.Treehugger’s unite!

I am receptive to learning new endeavors humans wish to involve themselves into on this planet.My children are grown,and have been blessed with my first grandson,for him I would seek information on this topic if shown? My life to date has been eventful and I have done much traveling over it during that time.        Ventures,which I have no regrets over in seeing much of what this world has to offer,I could speak of heartedly.I ,like yourself need not your sympathy,but rather would have some empathy if I required in the asking?

I have emphasized the Spiritual over all else these many years later in my life,and relish what my God has blessed me with during them.I too had a mother who loved me,and was my mother-father to me in those earlier years.My father was an abuser,not just me; but my siblings also,so my being the oldest; of course I was held to blame for being unable(  and even though incapable) of doing anything I could have at that age? Still held to blame,for such is the lot of non-participants? I love nature,and the life that succumbs to it,in all its joy.

As I mentioned,I am older,was a beautiful young man in my youth,and now a handsome older man in my older-age.I am a writer of Christian Prose,and have been so since 1956.

I choose to not publish my works for my God,as His Spirit is my guide and all glory is to be His.The words given me by His Spirit are free for the taking.This is an agreement I made in the 1970’s to our mutual liking then.I am also an abuse therapist for Christian Females I work with free of charge again for His glory.I have attended College over the years and have the equivalent of a Masters degree,yet find it of little value; for I never sought the big bucks or status a college degree could have  brought me.

My Son is a first time daddy,and my daughter is a student at California College of the Arts,in Berkeley,She will be graduating this coming spring with her Bachelors degree,and will then go onto her Masters/then Doctorate in Art then.I cannot emphasize enough that what you seek for in your life is more worthy than Gold. A much sought-after treasure others seek in their life or even find? As you can surmise,there is little that I haven’t experienced traveling this road of spiritual existance to date,but; I do have to admire you for your pluck in venturing out to experience what this world has to offer.

In His(Gods) love,

“lampwickke” (yes martha,you can google me!)

xxx

“My Testamony”!

2-2-10

7-25-01

I was saved at age thirty-one,received the Baptism of the Holy Ghost,

one year later;I asked God to give me the genuine baptisim.I didn’t

want that which looked improper to me,the coaxing,long drawnout

prompting with gestures kind.I entered the Pentecostal church

In 1974,prayed to God for the “genuine” Baptisim,He told me to “wait”.

One word which I have become very familiar with over the years.

I received the Baptisim of the Holy Ghost,in a small Pentacostal church,

In a blink as you go thru town, of London,California.Situated in the middle

of the cotton fields,just south of Fresno,California.I spoke in Tongues for

three hours,with no one prompting me,so I know it’s “genuine”.Since it

is “Genuine” to me,I neither promote,nor deny the  use of Tongues in a

believers Spiritual life.All I know is that I am edified within me,and I

understand  in my spirit,that I speak directly to God through the Holy

Spirit,in my heart.

I have spent these last thirty-four  years,walking

with my God,through many trials,and troubles.In all of them I waited,to

see “All things work together for good to them who love the Lord,and

for those called according to His purpose”.I know that God teaches,in the

midst of pain and suffering.I could do no less than lay down my life

for Christ,should He ask. I do not just speak the Word,I live it.I have a

good sense of humour,as I believe my God does also.I have worked many

times in concert with the Holy Spirit.I believe Love to be the very nature

of God,and that Obedience is one of His most important precepts.

I move by my Faith,which God gives a same measure to everyone.

It is what you  Choose to do with that measure of Faith

is what creates a hunger for God. My wife went home to the Lord,

on may  24,1994,one day before her forty-fifth birthday.

She suffered extreme severe pain due to Bone Marrow

Cancer,and her passing brought the blessing,of “all things work together”

In that the good that came through her passing,brought her release,

from her pain,and she will never suffer again.

My son a week before she passed away,was admitted to the same

hospital with Juvenile Diabetes,  and God saw to the needs

of both of those I loved that day.My son age 24  has found his personal

relationship,with his God,but not before Doing his  drugs,and experiencing

victory in Jesus by  renewing his faith in his God.

My daughter,21yrs,I being drawn back to Jesus,but it is slower

going for her,as she has issues with God in relation to her mothers death.

I am more than a father to them now,I am their Spiritual mentor,and my

name is “lampwicke” because this is me in the last

years of my life.I have worn,many labels for God,I have been

around long enough too.

What I value the most for all my life pursuits,is destroying the

selfishness within me: which is taught everyone from infancy,

by being in this world, until the acceptance of Jesus Christ

as a personal savior. Then doing my part,in asking,seeking,and

knocking throughout my lifetime,and striving for

Christlikeness until He takes me in the translation of the church,or I

take a dirt nap and beat you all there.

In His most Gracious Love,

In His love,

lampwicke

xxx

“Hermitage”!

1/28/10

12/25/09

Forlorn, empty; a spiritual desert.

I’m thinking no one in their right mind would

voluntarily choose to live within that place?

Yet! since I am governed greatly by Gods choices

for me,I can also see the good that comes out of it;

“for all things work together for good to them that love God,

who are the called according to his purpose.”

Many times I have alluded to this scriptural verse(Romans 8:28)

for many times its’ profoundness shakes my cage

something  fierce. Emphasis upon the “ALL” things.

God couldn’t be more clearer than what His

Holy Spirit initially wrote in the Word.

It would be reasonably difficult to understand some of the whys,

of my God without knowing His perspective; on the aspects of

spiritual things which He brings to pass? I like many of His

chosen ones; certainly are in the beginning stages of becoming spirit beings.As such, you as well as I ; can reason that He is pure Spirit.Would we not be similar in our early stages? With that in mind, is it so impossible becoming as He is. We to can contemplate that this spiritual process may begin to unfold in our “Walking In The Spirit”?

I know that at times I can run some things into the ground,into a similar spiritual reasoning.I to am like Him, made in His likeness and image? This was meant in the vein of His Spirit being! Not physically,but;I am like Him in my “spirit”. Am I being so extravagant to seek answers to explaining (to me at least),Gods qualities for my own beginning Agape love? I can know of Him,yetI cannot truthfully say “I know Him”?

Never meeting , face to face!

Even with the many years of  our loving relationship, I still can

only know the caress of His words upon my spirit;through His Spirit.All of us , have differing relationships with our personal God; depending upon how deep our love is to one another in that relationship?Even with our God,we tend to limit ourselves in our loving in that relationship,for flesh has little understanding of spirit?

I chose this one word to write about, when asking Gods Spirit for a leading to focus upon tonight:this was His response. One word,knowing that it was from Him;without a doubt.It  was so sweetly spoken to me, and from a place I have been for many years of my life! Hermitage, a place of spiritual renewal. Secluded, & a place I had chosen to place myself in during a portion of my life;

the connotation of being a hermit! Worldly dictionaries state,

a dwelling place secluded; mainly voluntary. It is, in my opinion;

that one would suspect for good reasons? However;I would say I

had this leading from Gods Spirit,for I don’t remember making a

choice to carry this out to the extent that I did.

In any event, for fourteen and a half years,I chose not to enter another church.My sorrows were to great to bear in this human shell which carries my spirit.Seeing a body of believers tear itself apart over differences of opinions, and seemingly trivial pursuits;broke my heart deeply. I can understand how my God must have grieved in His heart, over the many who have;and will

fall away from His Son: in times to come?

It ended, this hiatus from the church; when two months ago God

led me back into a church of His choosing.He didn’t disappoint me.Like many things in this life, I can offer up any number of reasons as to why this space of time was sacrificed; and I am sure many of you can come up with a few also?

Spiritually, as God puts us into what many of us call a spiritual desert; it just might have been His doing.I have no doubts that our relationship is the better, due to working it this way.

Contrary to the way He usually does things to create growth within us,it suited His purpose and drew us closer than I have ever dreamed.

I could not look at this situation as any way but good, and furthermore;the blessings yet to come: I am sure will perplex me,and comfort me even more than I imagine.Faith comes into play also after such a scenario, and trust and love;even greater:

due to having gone through it. I am always grateful to my loving

God,and His efforts to share with me His blessings of His Spirit.

“For all things work together for them that love God, to them

who are the called according to his purpose”.

In His loving Grace,

lampwickke

xxx

“The Reality of Why”!

1-6-10
10-19-01

In the realm of human nature,many things are seen as good.
Not necessarily sanctioned by God.
Nevertheless only a panacea of the times.
There is nothing wrong with patriotism,if one has no God.
Even if one has a God,which is the higher priority?
Do we wave a flag,have great fear, draw together in
in social unity or pray to our God?

America responds much as it always has,in giving,in social
sacrifice,in momentary prayer in fear.
It is at these times the foundation of those anchored in Christ
shines forth in light.
Like all spiritual efforts that foundation is a indepth relationship
with your God.
How can one justify growth within, without His love?

There is a hunger which accompanies Salvation.
This hunger propels us to seek all of God that we can.
After all Gods greatest desire is that we know Him.
Have you ever wondered just to what all-encompassing
depth He meant that?

I have seen over many years of life those of any one
body of believers who would lay down their lives
for Christ,should He ask.
This was an improptu observation spaced over thirty years or
so,and participation in many churches,and bodies of believers.
My conclusions,As believers we all are in our individual walk
with our God.

But over all those years I watched,I loved,I took an intimate part
in those bodies of believers.Of a body of say 100 participants,
revealed perhaps five or at most ten believers out of that 100
in whom I actually saw the fruit of Christ within.
I was ashamed,as it would shame my Jesus within me.
I did not judge,but I knew those few by their love,and their fruit.

How many came to worship God in Spirit and Truth?
How many came to church,to wear fine clothes,
seek business contacts,or feel obligated to be there
because their family have been pillars of that church?
How many just want to be part of a social group?
A true believer goes to church to worship their God,
all the rest reasons are but fringe benefits.

The individuals who truely belong to God,either know,or
are in the process of knowing their God intimately.
I have never met a true born-again believer who didn’t
when they speak in normal conversation, talk scripture.
Very little of a worldly nature is uttered from the Hearts
of those who are His.

Their hunger is insatiable in the things of God.
This isn’t a game one plays to amuse themselves and others,
it is always Spiritual Warfare,and it’s constant.
When we are called before the judgement  seat,
what will be your response to His question;
“did you feel our relationship together was your blessing always,
and did you do all you could to pass on my love to others”?.

As for the fear  of these times,and what the future holds.
Worst case scenario,we meet death,and go instantly to
be with Him.So we hasten to come to Him in a different way.

“He answered and said,Lo,I see four men
loose,walking in the midst of the fire,and they
have no hurt;and the form of the fourth is like
the Son of God.”

Daniel 3:25

In His love,

lampwickke   xxx

“Love Is”!

10-2-01
12/10/09

It seems when an old man gets older,
he can have deeper and more profound insights.
I’m there now,and like always,
I can write from that place I’m at.
I read some words today which touched me
to the deepest parts of my soul.

“The greatness and purity of ones love for God,
can allow one to love even while on earth
like those who enjoy Gods presence in Heaven.”
What power love has.
I don’t think the Bible emphasizes it enough.
Oh! yes God gave it  its  value of importance.
I feel that what He wrote of it was disguised somewhat.

The depth of just what it means to his creation,
is in their use of its action in their lives.
In this world today,it is a hard thing to love others.
A world  which conditions its citizens
to be non-committed, not-involved,………..selfish.

What we want,all our lives,and search so hard for,
to be loved  just for who we are, is just a search.
Nothing more than that.
We don’t want to “have” to be loved,
we have parents to do that.
The secret things of God,like finding His love,
a love which is beyond human reason
becomes revelation from the Spirit.
God reveals much within His love.
of who He is,why he does what He does.

For us,by loving him in action and deed
allows Christ within to live through us on this earth again.
In return,we understand what Heaven will be like there.
I can see why God has hidden much in His word,
He knows His creation as the Father  He is.
Knowing there is much of the Spiritual,
we could not handle with our limited Souls.

“……….Eye hath not seen,nor ear heard,
neither have entered into the heart of man, the
things which God hath prepared for them that love him.”

I Corinthians 2:9

In His love,

lampwickke xxx

“Nostalgia”!

You’ve probably had those days when on a trip to a relatives house,the crescendo of little voices reached new heights.”Are We there yet”,a staccato of siblings would murmur it seemed like every two minutes?

Funny it seemed like we would never arrive at grandmas house,and by the time we did,my father was climbing the walls of our cars interior!

No matter what he said,or tried to say about distance and time involved he got so wound up from us kids,he was squirrely in due time.There were distinct landmarks we spotted all along the way from the south side of Chicago ,to the city limits of Waukegan ,Ill.which set us all off at specific times.It wasn’t so much that we were going nuts,it was our gentle way of driving our dad nuts.As kids ,we had our methods of getting back at adults,and they were beauts? I remember grandmas house.It was a large house filled with bedrooms,and our aunts and uncles and so much love it shamed us to know and understand that such a place existed in our family where there was so much love and joy abiding in one place only 55miles from our apartment in Chicago.Just our pushing our dad over the edge was enough of an incentive to push

our father over that edge as many times as was possible.Hmm! parents thought we were just being kids,but our methods had their madness for sure.We got away with so much we never took stock of all that manipulation we fostered as kids enroute to only God knew where? Here parents thought we were just being bored and pains to their way of life,we were; but we wouldn’t let them know the truth of it all,it was a game,and one which we delighted in whole heartedly each time we piled into our old ‘47Dodge for the trip to grandmas house.We loved it when my father couldn’t bribe the motorcycle cop out of the ticket he received for going over the speed limit by 20mph.We didn’t say a word,but smiles on our faces belied our inner joy when he tried to get away with something and got caught at it.

Those were the days,I loved the smiles for they had the taint of Nostalgia throughout the air as it wafted surrounding us all!

In His love,

lampwickke

xxx