“God It Hurts So”!

7/19/10

It was something which I can only comment about due to personal experience. I call it “The Spirit of Dumb”.
My son had a most recent episode in his life which triggered  one bodacious Trial & Tribulation .It will be deeply imprinted in his mind for a long time.
I cannot call it stupidity,for he was in the midst of emotional heartache at the time he had this experience;therefore I understand his suffering and pain.

He had just split with his wife,and found his love shattered within this broken relationship; becoming his personal trial.He has always been a stay at home father,for the love he has for his son is beyond words.
Hurt is putting it mildly,but again we see that it is all to often the result of marrying a non-believer who refuses to know God. So although I keep my opinions to myself,when he hurts ; so do I. I can only stay within the parameters of advising him spiritually.To a great degree,I have had similar experiences of being unequally yoked,but what kid of ours listens to dad when all that sex and lust entices?
The fall was coming ,but a father has to button his lip and swallow , for God will have His way in teaching us what He will at times. He last weekend jumped off my patio ,down to the under-ground parking garage in my apartment and landed on both his heels.What took place has required surgery on both heels with screws implanted to restructure them so that he will again walk in about three months. I figure it will be much longer, but at present; doctors have his attention :which overrides dads opinions.

One of Gods best methods of teaching us those “unteachable” things which we have difficulty in learning, is to place us physically in a hospital bed ; flat on our backs as helpless as we can be, “to just think” a bit. It is amazing that I have been able to see first hand ,all the various ranges that emotion ,thought; and spirit creates within an individual in such a state of inner wounding.I’ve watched,and now am writing about this phenomenon now.
I can honestly say,that my son is totally in a listening mode; and will be while he convalesces in hospital for the coming months. He needs this time as we all do, to examine ourselves;our relationship with our God and living the Christian life daily.

The hardest fact about all this ,is that his love for his son is at present being evaluated ;this is beyond the deceit of the heart and loss of ones love trust in his marriage.
The largest turmoil within him is now working on his future involvement with his son, (my only grandson) and searching his heart as to his new relationship with each other now that mom is not in the picture any longer.

It will take some understanding and much love for his God ,but he is strong enough spiritually to be able to pull it all together for them both.In the meantime:he has the time to work it all out for all parties involved.

In His love,
lampwickke
xxx